A bad person?

Does the fact that I torment a disabled person make me a bad person? Katrina seems to think so. ;oP

Friday . . . Er . . . Saturday Update 6-11-11

We received the official letter that her long term disability was approved, but the very next day we received a letter stating that it would take approximately 30 day for them to figure out her pay. I just hope that they give us some back pay.

Katrina continues to feel like she is improving, and maybe she is. I just can't help but be skeptical because sometimes it feels like our luck won't allow improvement. Plus, even though she seems to be doing well at home I worry about putting her back into a stressful environment and seeing things go badly again.

They have asked both of us to teach the 4 and 5 year old class at church. It will be an interesting proving ground for her, a way to test the waters so to speak. Also, it might give her a chance to kind of work on those parts of teaching that she struggles with in a small class setting with less stress.

Friday Update 6-3-11

We haven't gotten official notice on Katrina's Disability Insurance yet, but they told her when she called the other day that they were just calculating her pay which we are hoping means that she was approved.

Katrina told the Rehab specialist today that she feels like she is thinking better. Our Rehab lady has really tried to push Katrina to think about how she thinks so she can improve.

We also followed up with the rehab doctor at the hospital this week and he still feels like given time she can make an almost full recovery and even return to teaching.

I guess that these things are a change from the pure bad news we seem to have been wading through the last few months. But it gets hard sometimes, when you can see any light ahead and you have no choice but to continue to trudge head long into the darkness. Never knowing what pit you might stumble into at any moment.

I pray for guidance about what I should do job wise. I pray to know what to do about a great many things as far as our future is concerend and invariably I get the same answer. "Patience, watch and wait."

That's hard for me. I see a problem and I want to rush in and fix it, but I can't. There is nothing I can do, and to won't do any good to go off complaining about the journey the Lord is taking us on. I've got to trust in him, but it gets hard sometimes.

Friday Update 5-27-11

We've been waiting most of this month to find out if her disability insurance was going to go through or not. Yesterday we called, again, to find out what was going on. It turns out that they have been waiting for our health insurance to send her records to them.

We called the Health insurance company and they pretty much said they weren't going to provide that information to anyone and that if we wanted it done we had to go on their website and print them off ourselves. So we did and then we faxed them to the Disability insurance people. Hopefully things get going now.

Also, We found out on the 24th that we had to apply for COBRA to continue our insurance since her disability hasn't gone through yet. That's going to cost us $1300.00,which we can't afford, but that's still cheaper than trying to pay her medical bills ourselves. Yuck! The good news is that if she is approved for disability the School district will take back over paying for her insurance.

The point of this update is that we need your prayers. We are on the cusp of severe trouble. Please pray that her disability gets approved and that it happens quickly.